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Hi, my name is Carmen
My life has been anything but simple. I grew up feeling different from everyone around me — born as a girl, yet never feeling like one. I struggled with anger, sensitivity, and a world that constantly felt “too much.” As a kid I dealt with OCD, anxiety, migraines with Aura, bullying, and a deep fear of getting sick that made it hard to even leave the house unless my mom reassured me again and again that I’d be okay. Sports were the one place where I felt alive, even there my emotions were too strong. I got angry when things were unfair, collected red cards, and eventually lost my team — the community that meant everything to me. No one ever taught me how to regulate my anger or my sensitivity, so both grew louder and more painful over the years. At 38, I finally understood something important: I’m non-binary. I’m not what people expected me to be. I’m just me.
Today, I live in nature in Portugal. It’s raw, beautiful, isolating, and sometimes extremely challenging. I struggle with the simple things — waking up, washing dishes, filling up my water tank, sitting in silence. I often end up lying on my sofa, feeling the weight of everything I’ve carried for years. But I also know this stillness is my way of rebelling against the pressure to constantly perform. I’m sensitive. I’m intense. I feel deeply. And I’ve spent most of my life believing something was wrong with me because of that. But I’ve also discovered what brings me joy: playing guitar, being close to animals, and seeing beauty in raw, honest moments. My camera has become the tool I use to understand the world and the people in it. I’m devastated by how disconnected and hurt so many of us are. And I want to create something that helps — even if it’s small. My goal is simple: to tell real human stories. Stories of anger, sadness, hope, fear, joy, and everything in between. Stories that make us feel less alone. Stories that remind us to be more compassionate with ourselves and with each other. This is who I am. And this is the work I want to bring into the world. (Future team members in tha making :-) )
Let’s talk.
Something inside you is ready to be seen? Let’s meet, talk, and see what unfolds. In our first conversation, you can share what brings you here, ask anything you need, and get a feeling for whether this journey feels right for you.
What to expect:
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A first conversation: To meet, connect, and get a first feeling for each other.
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A deeper conversation: To explore your story, your ideas, and what you’d like to create.
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If it feels right: We can talk about what continuing together could look like — at your own pace, without pressure.
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